Wait

"No"

A little boy at the end of a day knelt by his bed to say a prayer

And Father up in Heaven heard the prayer he prayed

And listened to each work with greatest care

The boy said, "Please bless that tomorrow I won't have to take a bath,

And bless that they will cancel school for snow."

And God had the power to protect him and never let him grow

But He said, "No."

A young man was holding tightly to the hand of a girl who had to say goodbye

And as she walked away he had to whisper a prayer

As he fought every tear that filled his eyes

He whispered,

"Please can you make her turn around and change her mind?

It's the deepest hurt that I have ever known."

And God had the power to protect him and never let him grow

But He said, "No."

And there are yesses that our father can hardly wait to give

And they are packed in every crevice of the lives we live

Sometimes God will pour down miracles and amazing twists of fate

And other times He chooses just to whisper, "Wait."

How many times have I prayed for blue skies

So no one has to cancel the game

And I feel so abandoned when the sky gets dark

Never knowing all the ones who prayed for rain

And usually the story's even trickier than that

With solutions that only God could know

But if you ask Him if he's ever overlooked you

Or ceased to love you so

He'll say, "No."

-Cherie Call

This song is my personal theme song right now. We have been elated for the past several weeks with the feeling that our baby would be coming soon-but there was an immediate change-when I think that God whispered, "Wait." We've cried and ached and cried some more.

Why would we assume that there would be a baby coming? No reason. I suppose it's our belief in miracles. Why the sudden change? I don't know that either-perhaps someone changed his/her mind. Whatever it is though, it's okay.

Perhaps I am the one praying for "blue skies" when there is a mother praying for rain. When both of our prayers can be answered, our paths will cross, and we can share our love for that sweet spirit that will bless both of our lives. It is hard for me to wrap my mind around the fact that her very difficult sacrifice will be our blessing and our miracle. I ache for her and pray that she will have peace and support as she makes such a difficult decision.

In the meantime, we've decided to look for the "yesses" and the miracles that are in our life right now. One day our baby will come.

When it is time.

When it is right.

Bless those birth parents!