Sunday, September 14, 2008

I'm Letting Go...

I'm letting go of my fear of people's thoughts and opinions concerning me.
I can't take the worry anymore and I really can't change what they think of me -positive or negative. I'm letting go of the selfishness that leads to such contemplations. Why has it taken this long?

I'm letting go of things that don't inspire, uplift, and edify me.
It is so easy to allow for mediocrity. It is so easy to not fight against the junk that the adversary is throwing at us to destroy our families, our standards, and our happiness. It is so easy to be apathetic when the world is teaching us that darkness is just easier to gather than holding on to the light of things that are just, good, and true.

I'm holding on to my love of Heavenly Father and my faith in Jesus Christ.
I'm holding on to the hope that comes through faith in those who love me more than I will ever know and the knowledge that they, undoubtedly, know everything about me and about what is to come. I'm letting go of the doubt and holding on to the promise that if I do what I have been asked to do, He will take care of the desires that are so dear to my heart. I'm holding on to the very real knowledge that I can change-I can be better-more loving-more kind-more compassionate-more pure-because Christ has made it so.

I'm holding on to my marriage- my best friend, my companion, my example, my love, my husband.
Too many marriages are falling apart and I am committed to not let that happen. I'm holding on to better communication and more positive encouragement and support. I'm holding on to compromise and fireworks. I'm holding on to the achiness I feel when we are only apart for a night- I love him so much.
I'm holding on to love.
I want the excess space that has just opened up (by letting go) to be filled with more love and service for people in my circle of influence. I want to be more compassionate to those whose opinion I once feared-to love those who I too often criticize. I'm holding on to showing more love and working harder at maintaining relationships with my family. I'm holding on to being the kind of person who others can feel safe and loved around.
I'm letting go so that I can open my life more fully to the things that are worth holding on to.